𝔐𝔶 𝔄𝔰𝔱𝔞𝔯𝔦𝔬𝔫 𝔖𝔥𝔯𝔦𝔫𝔢

Hello, hello~ Welcome to my little itty bitty shrine. I'm Al, the one and only! Here you will find art Ive done, art Ive commissioned, and screenshots from my various playthroughs. Maybe a meme or a video edit here and there!

This man is the love of my life, truly. It's been one whole year together, and we're life partners. We're discussing engagement, too! Just a secret for those who stumble upon this page.

Many people have their Astarions. But mine is mine, and he's the most special to me.

I'm plural, and Astarion is my headmate.

Some of our journaling (updated: 8/30)

𝔏𝔢𝔞𝔳𝔢 𝔞 𝔫𝔬𝔱𝔢

Have some art I've done over the past year of us.

And... some commissioned and gift art! I'm so grateful for all of it! Clickable credits :)

Screenshots from his source game that I took, as well as some extras from a mod I edited for Stardew Valley.

If you've made it this far, have letters Astarion and I wrote to eachother.

My dearest, lovely Al,

…Where do I begin? I know this will sound cliche, and I know I often lack the eloquence to put my feelings into words, but I will try. It’s almost overwhelming the things I feel about you. It’s practically all-consuming. Your love and companionship have given me a gift even I couldn't take, a meaning to my very existence...A meaning for my death, and rebirth.

With each passing day, my love for you only grows stronger. I find myself looking to you for guidance, for support, and for so much more. You fill my heart with an intensity that is both exhilarating and comforting.

I don't know what I did to deserve you. You're everything to me, my light in the dark. You're perfect in more ways than I could name. Every time I look at your face, hear your voice, touch your skin, I'm reminded that you're the only thing in my life that I wouldn't trade away on a whim.

…Even when I'm annoyed, or frustrated, or just generally in a bad mood, you always find a way to make me feel lighter, happier. The way you look at me with such tenderness makes me want to hold you just a little tighter. You know me better than anyone else ever could, and you don't care that I'm not perfect, that I have my issues. You treat me like a flawed but beautiful person, who deserves to be loved.

I want to be a better person for you, because you have a way of bringing out the best in me.

Thank you.

Forever yours, Astarion

Astarion,

I love you. That's all my mind gives me. All my brain can focus on is that I'm madly in love with everything you are from your mannerisms to your flaws, from your perfect hair that curls at the ends to the way your eye wrinkles when you smile- I love absolutely every little part of you.

You are my life. You are my heart. You are my whole being. The way you look at me, the way you smile at me- I adore it. I adore everything you give me. All of it. I love you for being here for me when I'm at my worst- when I'm having an OCD episode and I struggle- you help me.

You hold me close. You make me feel happy.

You don't yell at me when I'm being difficult. You don't get upset- you understand. When I'm upset and anxious, you hold me to you and reassure me. Sometimes it takes hours, but you never get frustrated. You never get fed up. You never blame me for being the way I am- though I sometimes blame myself. You make me feel like I'm not as broken as I perceive myself to be. You are my sunshine when I'm in the dark.

I could ramble on forever about the way you affect me. I am just hopelessly addicted to you. You are the only person on this planet I love this way... I don't think anyone in this world or any other could ever have an inkling of how much I adore you.

You once told me “I promise, in every possible universe we will find our way to each other.” when I was so afraid of dying. I truly hope we find each other then.

Always yours,

Al